I don't want to just live

I am afraid of the REST of my life. I am afraid of sitting in cold ass Maine, never experiencing life and seeing all of the beautiful and extraordinary places! Everyone is concerned with college, and don't get me wrong, it's a very important part of my agenda, but when I look at the rest of my life, I don't just see a career, I see my future. I see the open road, and sunny skies, and wind in my hair. My life in meant for adventure, my life is meant for growing and shifting and living. I want to enjoy long car rides with the love of my life on a back road I never knew existed. I want to live this life with one feeling. The feeling of freedom.

After my first 2 years of school at EMCC, I really want to go to California, I was actually going to this year but the one thing holding me back was Trevor... And coming so far with him in the years we have been together is hard to just let go of. I have went through most of my high school career with him, hard times, bad time, good times and sad times, But when I see the rest of my life ahead of me? The risk is worth taking, and if he decides to come, he is more than welcome. I want to experience warm beaches, and late nights with crowds of people, and all of the organic food I could eat! I don't want to be average, and follow along the people around me, living in the same house for 20 years, I would rather be broke and see everything, than sit in small Bucksport Maine and see nothing. The world is my oyster.

So after EMCC, I am planning to take schooling to become either a doula, or a child nutritionist. I will be taking the classes in college, which college? I don't know yet! Some where exciting, full of life, and new, But where that is, is just part of the journey!